The Best That I Can Be... I want to complete you...
I fucked up... I was wrong... I lied... I was not transparent...
L caught me today.... I keep another cellphone, one which I give out to people I meet in chat who I am not comfortable giving my real number to... In fact, I still text and talk to a few guys using this number... Guys I have met through g4m or other sites... I disabled my g4m profile weeks ago, when I met L... But some guys still text me on this other number I keep... Today, L found out about this phone...
I left him at my place this morning... I attended a photography lighting class... Apparently, he found the phone when texts were coming in and it was interferring with the ipod speakers... Busted!
I know I should have told him about it... About the other guys I talk too... But I always thought that these guys were trivial... I have not met any of them, except for one guy... I just talk or text them... All flirting... I really didn't think nothing about them... And in fact, if I really wanted to keep these from him, I would have kept the cellphone hidden... But I thought wrong... By the mere fact that I kept another number shows that I was not honest with him... I was keeping something from him... I was not 100% truthful...
I was in tears when he was talking to me on the cellphone... I was so afraid... I knew it, I fucked up... I was so afraid, I was going to lose L.... I didn't know what to say... I pleaded... I explained... But deep down inside, I knew I was wrong... And if I lost him because of that, I had no one else to blame but myself...
Finally, he agreed to meet and talk... I visited him at his house... My first time to visit, but in not the best of circumstances... We talked, I explained... We made up...
I told him I was wrong... I told him I love him... I told him I want to go the straight and narrow... To be the best that I can be for him.... I thank God, that he forgave me... And that he will continue to see me.... I have never been so afraid in my life.... I don't want to lose L... He is truly a blessing...
I want to complete you L... In the same way that you complete me... I promise to tell you everything... To be honest and transparent at all times... I do not want to lie to you anymore... I love you L!....
You are my 533....
L caught me today.... I keep another cellphone, one which I give out to people I meet in chat who I am not comfortable giving my real number to... In fact, I still text and talk to a few guys using this number... Guys I have met through g4m or other sites... I disabled my g4m profile weeks ago, when I met L... But some guys still text me on this other number I keep... Today, L found out about this phone...
I left him at my place this morning... I attended a photography lighting class... Apparently, he found the phone when texts were coming in and it was interferring with the ipod speakers... Busted!
I know I should have told him about it... About the other guys I talk too... But I always thought that these guys were trivial... I have not met any of them, except for one guy... I just talk or text them... All flirting... I really didn't think nothing about them... And in fact, if I really wanted to keep these from him, I would have kept the cellphone hidden... But I thought wrong... By the mere fact that I kept another number shows that I was not honest with him... I was keeping something from him... I was not 100% truthful...
I was in tears when he was talking to me on the cellphone... I was so afraid... I knew it, I fucked up... I was so afraid, I was going to lose L.... I didn't know what to say... I pleaded... I explained... But deep down inside, I knew I was wrong... And if I lost him because of that, I had no one else to blame but myself...
Finally, he agreed to meet and talk... I visited him at his house... My first time to visit, but in not the best of circumstances... We talked, I explained... We made up...
I told him I was wrong... I told him I love him... I told him I want to go the straight and narrow... To be the best that I can be for him.... I thank God, that he forgave me... And that he will continue to see me.... I have never been so afraid in my life.... I don't want to lose L... He is truly a blessing...
I want to complete you L... In the same way that you complete me... I promise to tell you everything... To be honest and transparent at all times... I do not want to lie to you anymore... I love you L!....
You are my 533....
posted by Jed Doble at 10:11 PM
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